Tuesday, August 13, 2013

Un Año

On year.
It sounded like a long time. It’s not.
Yes, a lot has happened.  But it’s not a long time…it’s not enough time.

August 13, 2012 I left Minnesota to live in Antigua, Guatemala for one year as a long-term volunteer with the organization Common Hope.  All I knew was that I was going to be working in their youth program…my full job description had not developed yet.  I was excited and nervous.  I knew I was doing the right thing.

Today is August 13, 2013.  It is one year later, and I’m not going home yet.  I decided to extend my stay until December…and now I just recently decided that I will be coming back here in January to stay until June after being home for Christmas.  I’m not finished here.

It’s amazing how comfortable you can get in a place that is very different than your home for your first 22 years.  Though, places may be different, but people and communities are everywhere.  And that is what makes you comfortable in a place…that’s how you make a home in a new place.

Why am I staying?  There are many reasons.  One of the big reasons is I still feel like I’m not finished with my work that I am adding to the youth program at Common Hope.  I started a girls’ leadership program this year, and I really want to make sure it continues.  I feel if I can start it off next year, I can make it better and it will continue.  I re-vamped the leadership group they had when I arrived here.  I think we have made some positive changes this year, but it can be better too.  Am I the only person who can make these changes next year and ensure that it continues?  Of course not.  But I know that I can be the person who does it, and I want to be that person.
My work is the main factor keeping me here, but that does not negate all the great relationships I have established that I am not ready to leave.  I receive such energy from living here that I cannot explain.  Life is exciting and enriching.  I like it. I love it. :)

Will I ever come (go) back to Minnesota?  This is a question I know some people in my life are wondering.  The answer is “Yes.”  I am sure of it.  I love my life here; that is for sure.  But I know that I will be back in Minnesota.  So, do not fear those who are wanting me back.  It will happen. :)


One year.  It seemed like such a long time.  But it is here.


This is a photo of almost all of the employees of Common Hope after a work event!! :) A great family.

Friday, July 19, 2013

Señoritas Líderes

In the beginning, I had no idea what I was doing.  Well, maybe “no idea” is a bit of an exaggeration.  I like working with youth; I am an older sister so I’ve grown up mentoring and interacting with younger girls while being mentored and loved by my “strong, all-women’s liberal arts educated” mother (as we often say); I attended an all-women’s university where woman’s leadership and development was highly emphasized; I have had a few experiences being a teaching assistant or running a workshop with young girls or women.  BUT, I have never created, planned and facilitated a young girls leadership group…and then in another culture and language.

Regardless of the the pre-text, whether or not I was (or am) qualified to do this, this is what my assignment was and is.  It is not just an assignment; it is a need and something I wanted to do.  So, here we are.  It is July.  The group has been up and running for about 6 months (planning and recruiting of course started before).  The first weeks…it was a good day when I had 3 girls.  There was a Friday when I only had 1.  And then it happened.  They started to come…and they kept coming.  We now have 13 on the attendance sheet with about 10 that are very consistent.  Now, numbers are great, but they do not capture it.  These aren’t just numbers these señoritas, they are engaged, active, willing participates who want to learn and do something; who have really started to own their group.  They take initiative, are great workers, and work as a team.  I love them more every Friday that we meet.

Here are some highlights:
  • Choosing their name (which is more their motto now as it was kind of long and the name Señoritas Líderes [Girl Leaders] has stuck).  They had many ideas, discussions were made, along with voting.  The final vote was: Señoritas que nunca se rinden [Girls that never give up]
  • Everything month they plan out what we are going to do for the month.  They understand that there should be a variety of activities (some focused on learning or improving ourselves and others can be recreational).
Workshops and themes we’ve seen and worked with:
                a.    Women’s health
b.      Sexual health and pregnancies
c.       Public speaking
d.      Planning and hosting an activity
e.      Learning about other cultures through conversations with volunteers from other countries
  • Planning and executing a “rally” on Saturday.
a.       A rally here is where there are several stations of games and the youth are in teams and must complete all the stations.  The first to complete them all wins.
b.      My señoritas were amazing!  They took the planning very seriously, made shirts to identify themselves, came early, set everything up and the activity was a GREAT success!  It was truly THEIR activity and was LESS work for me.  I was just BEAMING with pride. :)
  • Circle discussion with an invited affiliated young woman guest who had a baby before graduation (and is still studying with her 1 year old baby).
a.       The invited guest shared her experience, the changes in her life after having a baby (the good and the bad and the different)
b.      She encouraged my girls to really take advantage of “their youth” and study hard while they are their only responsibility
c.       One of my girls asks, “what was it like to give birth?” and then quickly covered her mouth embarrassed…thinking she shouldn’t have asked such a question.  But it was a perfect question for this place and this space of all women.  I encouraged the question and the open space and our invited guest was happy to explain what her experience was like.  It was GREAT.  This is something all girls are curious about…but what happens if you don’t have a safe space to ask the questions and hear the answers?

There are many more highlights…some I remember and some I know I am forgetting.  All I can say is I am SO happy I started this group and am proud of the young women who are making it into what it is.  Friday afternoons are starting to be one of my favorite parts of my week.  They are such eager girls – goofy and full of life…but able to be serious and get work done too.  It is SUCH a pleasure to work with them and be a part of their girls group.

I am a bit nervous about the sustainability of this group.  Just for the fact, that currently there is only one other woman working in my office and her work load is already full…and therefore would not be able to continue the girls group once I leave.  The plan is that another volunteer will be hired to take my place.  I can just hope that she has the same passion (if we can designate the volunteer be a woman) as I do for girls leadership and development.  I don’t want to see this group end.  And it is going to be incredibly hard to let them go.

Though, not focusing on the end but on the time I still have with them…we have in the works, a “water day”..guess I’ll be getting wet that day. :)  Also, next month I want to bring in a panel of working women to give them an idea of the variety of opportunities they can have in the work force and to hear about these women’s experiences.  I hope to get a variety of women in different positions (some that are positions where women are not as often seen).

I didn’t know what I was doing.  I still can’t say I am completely sure.  But the beauty is I don’t have to have it all figured out…because these young women are the leaders.  They are going to make this group their own…I am just here to support them.





This is not all of them - but don't they just make you smile?! :)

Monday, May 6, 2013

In the moment...


They come to visit our reading corner, several moms and their children.  I invite them in, explain our corner and they begin to sit and read.  I see a little boy just outside of our carpeted reading corner area near his mom…he curiously looks on.  I approach him:

“Quieres escoger un libro para leer?”  “Do you want to choose a book to read?”
“Es que él no puede leer.” – su mamá  “It’s just that he can’t read.” – his mom
“O, está bien! Es por qué estoy aquí.”  “Oh, it’s okay! That’s why I am here.”

I take his hand and we walk over to the little pond of rubber ducks where he gleefully picks one up to show him the number of which book we will read.

We go and sit next to where his mom is with book number 5, El Patito Feo (The Ugly Duckling).  

Little Freddy is on my lap as I read the Spanish words on the colorful pages…pointing out the pictures and he copies me and points at the ugly duckling himself.

When we finish, I ask if he would like to get another one.  He smiles largely and nods his head as he jumps off my lap, takes my hand and we head back to the duck pond.

When we are back in the chair next to his mom, Freddy on my lap, I begin to read.  I notice that his mom leans in a little more time, so I turn closer towards her and open the book so we can all see.  There we are..all three…reading and sharing the moment.

We visit the duck pond one last time, but do not have time to finish this book.  It is time for them to go and we still need to sign the window which is serving as our guest book.

Vamos a ir a firmar tu nombre en la ventana.” – yo  “We are going to sign your name on the window.” -me
“Es que él no puede escribir.” – su mamá  “It’s just that he can’t write.” – his mom
“Está bien! Yo puedo ayudar. [a Freddy] Puedes dibujar lo que quieres y después firmaré tu nombre.”  “It’s okay! I can help. [to Freddy] You can draw whatever you want and then I’ll write your name.”

Freddy aproaches the window with the red marker and quietly draws a square.  With a smile he hands the marker to me.  I ask the mother how to spell his name, but she misunderstands me and says her name.  I then assume she wants to sign her name as well and try to hand her the marker to write her name.  She quickly because nervous and says, “no no no” quietly.

She is illiterate.

I write Freddy’s name and his mother’s name, Francisca, on the window.

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I look back…I see 11 smiley, laughing, chatting faces tucked into the back of the van.  11 girls beyond excitement that this Saturday morning we are going to the pool.  The 25 minute ride has no pockets of silence and every molecule of the air is filled with their energy.
We arrive to the pool, but it will not be open for ten minutes.  I believe the longest 10 minutes of these girls’ lives.  Every person that walked near the door was the potential owner opening the pool.
At 10:00 on the dot, I allowed them out of the van and the swarm rushed to the door.
Smiles, laugher, jumping, splashing, playing…all morning.
“Teresa! Mira!”  “Teresa! Look!”
“Teresa! Estoy nadando?”  “Teresa! I’m swimming!”
“Teresa! Ayúdame nadar!”  “Teresa! Help me to swim!”
“Teresa! Teresa! Teresa!”
“Teresa. Cuando vamos a regresar?”  “Teresa. When are we going to come back?”
“Teresa, MUCHAS GRACIAS!!”  “Teresa, THANK YOU SO MUCH!”



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[por teléfono / on the phone] “Es muy importante que todos los líderes están este sábado porque tengo una sorpresa para Uds.”  “It is very important that all the leaders are here this Saturday because I have a surprise for you all.”

I repeated this line to all thirteen of the youth in the leadership group, and the rest of the week all I heard from them when they passed by my office was:
“Y Teresa…la sorpresa? ¿Qué es?”  “And Teresa…the surprise? What is it?”

Saturday afternoon…sitting at the table after just cleaning up after lunch…Y Teresa..la sorpresa?”

Hands holding their individual wrapped packages labeled with their names…ready to tear the paper as soon as the last name is called.
Smiles and shout out’s as they realize what the package contains.
The table and air around it is soon filled with navy blue as they hold up their personalized shirt to see their own name printed on the back or to show it to someone else at the table.

Smiles.

Half of them have them already have the shirt on before I have the chance to tell them that we’re all going to put them on and take some pictures.

50 pictures later…10 different poses…and I might have one picture where everyone is looking and no one’s eyes are closed.

We end in a circle, standing on the grass, discussing how we are team.  These t-shirts are a visual sign of that, but more importantly the way we work together, communicate and work through the good and the bad together is a sign of that.  Somos un equipo.




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8pm in front of Café Condesa.

Moli comes from the north and Karin from the south.

Maybe it’s pie or hummus or a coke or an empanada over which we catch up on the week or laugh about the randomness of our Pie and Bean Club.

Laughter.

9:30pm enter Las Palmas

I untie my tennis shoes, replace my white socks with black footies, and slip on my dancing heels.

I stand up, a few inches taller than before.  I hand the black plastic bag containing my tennis shoes and my jacket to the doorman who now knows my name and with whom I have an agreement that he will tuck my things away in the cabinet by the door.

We can hear the band warming up with the DJ’ed music in the background as we approach the door to the dance floor…it is empty except for a lingerer or two standing near the wall as it is still early.

Greetings to Julio, our friend and DJ, and the waiters that are nearby.  We find our place.  

The night of salsa will begin.

…..dancing, music, energy, spirit….all night.

1am the last song…the realization that I must get these heels off as soon as possible…goodbyes…contentment.

Ready for the next night.

Friday, March 22, 2013

Common Hope Blog

Good morning everyone!

I just wanted to link here my blog post that is featured on the Common Hope blog.  They asked each of us long-term volunteers to answer some questions and have been putting up our responses on their blog.  Enjoy!

Monday, February 18, 2013

6 months


Thursday, February 13th marked six months that I have been in Guatemala.  1 year ÷ 2 = 6 months.  I have arrived at the mid-point of my stay.

Has time flown by? Yes.

Does August 13, 2012 seem like a long time ago? Yes and no. Time has flown by, but I have definitely changed which makes my first few weeks here seem like a long time ago.

How does it feel to be on the down-hill slope of your stay? Mixed feelings.  Definitely mixed feelings.

Was the year experience the right choice for you? Yes. Absolutely yes.

I am really amazed as I take a moment to reflect how well I have adjusted to my life here in Guatemala.  I like it.  I like the people, culture, my job, dancing.  It’s very nice.  Everything is not perfect of course.  There are things (more specifically, people) I miss from back home.  There are parts of life here that get tiring or bothersome.  Though, really overall, it is a good life.  I meet many interesting and fun people.  I am learning and practicing Spanish constantly.  I am working with a purpose and mission with a community that has a similar goal and vision.  I get to go out dancing regularly with amazing dancers.  Life is pretty good. :)

Updates (as I have really started to slack on getting blog posts up – sorry!)
My home as now changed from just me living here to a happy family of 4!  First came my roommate, Talen, who is a friend of a volunteer I work with.  He is originally from Norway but has lived in the U.S. for a lot of his life.  He’s a great ball of energy and fun…and he is currently dog sitting a tiny little puppy for his boss.  So, we also have a pet. :)
My other two roommates are Lauren and José.  Lauren is a new long-term volunteer at Common Hope and José is her boyfriend from Honduras.  It’s a great balance with them two here as we all get along very well….and who doesn’t like a full house???
To add to the community, my friend Alejandro is also currently visiting Guatemala for about two months to get some work done and also see what I’m up to do down here.  He has a little place just around the corner from where we are in Santa Ana.
With all these new people in Santa Ana (and those who were already here) we have a nice little community going which has involved game nights or “family dinners” on our terrace.  A lot of laughing…which is my favorite!

Work has been keeping busy as usual.  I will be starting my girls group this coming week and I have to do some re-vamping of my other leadership group as some “bumps in the road” have come up.  Please send some prayers for guidance and wise decisions with that!  Also, there is going to be some movement in the office so that my cube mate Karen is changing positions in the foundation and moving out of the office. :(  It’s a bummer for us, but we are happy for her because she is excited about her new position with the library on site.  She will only be a staircase and a few steps away…but it will definitely be very different.
Our Saturday activity program has REALLY grown.  Last year we were planning for about 90 youth to come (sometimes we’d make that number, but usually it was a little less) but now we have to plan for 150!!! That is a lot of kids.  It makes Saturdays very busy, but we are figuring it out and making it better each week.

I have been helping to coordinate a profession sound course that a volunteer from Spain is providing for 10 weeks to our youth and other employees.  It is turning out to be a very great course – the students love Pedro and he’s a great person to work with.  He is on site with us on Saturday mornings.  It has been fun remembering the Andalucian accent and word choices when talking with him…but I forgot how fast they talk in Spain!  I have been spoiled here in Guatemala. :)

One last update.  On February 14th I participated in the flash mob dance for the movement One Billion Rising which called women (and the men who love them) to all dance together to stand up against violence against women.  There was a choreographed dance you could learn on youtube.  People all over the world got together to dance and there was someone organizing a dance here in Antigua.  I got connected with her and taught some of my youth and friends at the foundation the dance and then we all danced in Central Park at 5:30.  It was a lot of fun and very energizing!!!

Well, that’s all for now!!  I hope you all had a wonderful Valentine’s Day and hugged many people you love!

Wednesday, January 16, 2013

Back into the swing of things.


I returned to work on Thursday, January 3rd, to an office not quite full or hopping (just me and two other colleagues in our office), yet the fun and energy of the work was not lacking.  It was great to be greeted by my co-workers…talk about what we did on vacation…and talk about all the events and projects coming up in the next few weeks.  Jaime and I (with the help of one of the interns in our office, Emmanuel) decided that our entrance needed a make-over.  It began with just taking down the letters of the old welcome message that hung around our welcome white board so that we could put up a new one…to touching up the white paint on the wall to clean it up…to encountering some beautiful bright blue paint in one of our rooms…and…well...  Now we have a wonderful splash of color that welcomes you into our office! :)  The white board is cleaned and back up with freshly printed and laminated names (we indicate where we are each day..”in the office”, “study club”, “personal day”, etc.) and on Tuesday I finished putting up all the letters that we cut out for the message.  That little (actually, not so little) project has done in between all the other things that have been starting up with this New Year.

On the 6th, was the school supply day at Common Hope where all the families in the Antigua area come to the foundation to get their school supply packets for the year.  We wanted to take advantage of the opportunity to reach out to every affiliated family, therefore I put together a brochure with all the information about the programs that our youth office provides.  My leadership group and I were there on the school supply day to hand out these brochures and talk about our programs.  It was quite exciting and actually has produced some results as we have had many young people stopping by our office in the following weeks to ask about programs and sign-up for those that have sign-ups.  Very exciting!! :)  An exciting moment for me this day was at the beginning of the early morning (we were all there by 6:30am) when I was talking with the youth of my leadership group.  I was telling them that they were here to do more than just hand out brochures, but they really needed to talk to the families about our programs and why they should participate.  When it was time to get started they all wanted to sit at the table instead of going out to the different lines that were going to form with families waiting because they thought that staying at the table would mean less talking.  Well, everyone sitting at the table was not going to work…so I stopped them all from talking (as they were trying to negotiate who was going to get to stay at the table) and said “Okay, okay – Leaders, hands in!”  We all put our hands into the middle of the circle like sports teams do before the start of a game, and I gave my pep talk.  “We have some important work to do here for our office Apoyo a Jóvenes.  This is your opportunity to help us out.  Remember, I chose each and every one of you for this group because I knew that you could do something like this – I know you can talk to these families.  You are all leaders.  So, let’s get to it! On the count of 3 we are all going to say ‘Leaders!’ 1…2…3…LEADERS!”  And guess what happened?  They all grabbed up handfuls of brochures and rushed off so fast I didn’t even have a moment to blink…and guess who was left at the table?  Me. Just me. :)

I have had one more meeting with these leaders this past Saturday.  It is really fun working with them.  This month we are going to be learning about “What is leadership?” and exploring the different perspectives on it and what they themselves think about leadership.  I try to mix up our time together with games and activities along with short discussions and reflections.  We are also doing some of the preliminary aspects of starting a group such as working out expectations for the group, making personal goals, making our group contract with each other, etc.  It’s amazing how many experiences from my past I am able to pull ideas from…classes I’ve taken, professors or mentors I’ve worked with, groups I’ve been a part of, research I’ve read, etc.  It’s really cool to see it all coming together in a project I am working on.  I like it.

My girls leadership group is not going to start until February because I need more time to recruit.  Exciting news is after the school supplies day and getting the word out to many families that way, I have handed out 17 applications for the group.  Now the waiting…I really hope most of those applications come back filled out.  Right now I sit with 4 completed applications.

Beyond my leadership responsibilities I am keeping busy with other tasks as well, whether it’s planning the schedule and activities for 6 volunteers that are going to be with our office for a week; translating visits as new Vision Teams are starting to come down; or helping the youth that come into the Study Club.  School started up again this week, and we are very happy to already see youth coming in to work on their homework.  As the message outside our office now says, “Tu Meta Escolar 2103 Inicia HOY!” (Your 2013 School Goal Starts TODAY) it is important for the students to begin working hard right from the beginning so that they are learning and doing well the whole year instead of trying to catch up at the end.

I think I may be loving my job even more in this New Year.  I have such a greater confidence in myself and my abilities in my position; I KNOW what’s going on (most of the time :) ); I am forming and making my own activities and implementing my own ideas with programs of our office; and I have even stronger relationships with the youth and my colleagues.  It is good.  Life is good.